With everything that's happened,
It's a wonder that we even made it this long.
We've been through so much,
And yet it still wasn't enough.
Wasn't enough for you to stay.
It wasn't going to be simple.
It was never about the simplicity.
It was never easy.
You may wonder sometimes
Why I'm always sad...
I'm sad because,
No matter what I do,
Nothing gets through to him...
All he does is speak words to me,
And I sit there...
I sit there and look at him...
I look at him with feelings.
Feelings I know won't ever be returned
The same way
And that kills me...
Run...
Run...
That's all I can think about.
Run...
Run...
RUN...
It is all that I CAN do
If I don't, I would cease to exist.
And if I cease to exist,
So does the world.
There are some that want me to stop,
But I can't do that...
I just can't.
I can't because I made a promise.
A promise to friend.
And I can't let him down.
Not again.
So I have to run.
For myself.
For the world.
And more importantly,
For him.
For him, I'll do anything.
Even if it means forcing myself
Into an endless curse...
There comes a day,
When you have to leave
Everything behind.
Everyone you love,
Everything you ever cared about.
You wish it could be
Some other way,
But it can't.
The future,
No matter how much we fight it,
Is going to happen.
And that's life.
That's how it's going to be.
Fighting a war,
That can't be won.
No matter how equipped
You think you are to fight,
Nothing can prepare you
For what life has in store for you
You were my everything
You.
Of all people,
I chose you.
When I needed a place
To lay down my heart,
You were the only one
That picked it up.
You were the only one
That chose to wear it
From the beginning.
From that moment,
From that beautiful moment,
I felt like I meant something.
That I mattered.
I don't anymore.
With every breath that I take,
I realize that you're the only light
That I'll ever see.
The only light that I've ALWAYS seen.
The light that I've been so desperately
Trying to find.
Even with the darkness
That exists before the dawn,
I've always felt you with me.
Even if I didn't know
Who you were yet.
Even with you gone fro
When you're little,
You like to pretend that you're
Your favourite superhero.
That you always wanted to have
Some kind of superpower that make
You part of the best.
And that's great.
That's great when a kid does that.
When a kid has enough imagination in them,
To create an entire scenario based on fantasy.
The sad thing about that though,
Is that one day in that child's life,
Something or someone is going to walk
Into their life and ruin that vision,
That dream.
They're told to grow up and face reality.
That they can't live inside the mind of a dream.
That it is perfectly normal for a CHILD to do that,
But not someone who is no longer such
With everything that's happened,
It's a wonder that we even made it this long.
We've been through so much,
And yet it still wasn't enough.
Wasn't enough for you to stay.
It wasn't going to be simple.
It was never about the simplicity.
It was never easy.
You may wonder sometimes
Why I'm always sad...
I'm sad because,
No matter what I do,
Nothing gets through to him...
All he does is speak words to me,
And I sit there...
I sit there and look at him...
I look at him with feelings.
Feelings I know won't ever be returned
The same way
And that kills me...
Run...
Run...
That's all I can think about.
Run...
Run...
RUN...
It is all that I CAN do
If I don't, I would cease to exist.
And if I cease to exist,
So does the world.
There are some that want me to stop,
But I can't do that...
I just can't.
I can't because I made a promise.
A promise to friend.
And I can't let him down.
Not again.
So I have to run.
For myself.
For the world.
And more importantly,
For him.
For him, I'll do anything.
Even if it means forcing myself
Into an endless curse...
There comes a day,
When you have to leave
Everything behind.
Everyone you love,
Everything you ever cared about.
You wish it could be
Some other way,
But it can't.
The future,
No matter how much we fight it,
Is going to happen.
And that's life.
That's how it's going to be.
Fighting a war,
That can't be won.
No matter how equipped
You think you are to fight,
Nothing can prepare you
For what life has in store for you
You were my everything
You.
Of all people,
I chose you.
When I needed a place
To lay down my heart,
You were the only one
That picked it up.
You were the only one
That chose to wear it
From the beginning.
From that moment,
From that beautiful moment,
I felt like I meant something.
That I mattered.
I don't anymore.
With every breath that I take,
I realize that you're the only light
That I'll ever see.
The only light that I've ALWAYS seen.
The light that I've been so desperately
Trying to find.
Even with the darkness
That exists before the dawn,
I've always felt you with me.
Even if I didn't know
Who you were yet.
Even with you gone fro
'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through dA,
Not a troll was stirring, nor Grinch in his sleigh.
Deviations were hung in digital Galleries with care,
In hopes that +Favourites soon would be there.
The n00bs were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of Daily Deviations danced in their heads.
And Fella in his 'kerchief, and spyed (https://www.deviantart.com/spyed) with his night-light,
Had just settled down to log-off for the night,
When over in the Forums there arose such a clatter,
Fella sprang back online to see what was the matter.
To the browser window he flew like a flash,
Tore open the tabs and refreshed the cache.
When what to his art-loving ey
The first person to lay their eyes on the Oort went mad.
In those first days, when humanity finally achieved near-light-speed travel, we didn't see any artistry in the stars, any poetry to our endeavors. We saw endless desolation, we saw gamma radiation, we saw black holes swallow up entire star systems, we saw a lot of random radio noise from dying stars and rogue gas giants. With the Oort, we saw one hundred thousand astronomical units of randomly dispersed clumps of ice, silent and nearly motionless in near-total dark.
When the first colony was set up in orbit of Proxima Centauri, it was placed on a completely uninhabited ball of rock
Protonyms: words that don't yet exist. (it's a real word, protonyms)
Current Residence: Florida deviantWEAR sizing preference: medium Favourite genre of music: anything really Favourite style of art: pencil drawing and photography MP3 player of choice: my phone Favourite cartoon character: Beast Boy Personal Quote: the future is for the ones that survive the past
Favourite Visual Artist
O'farrel (a local artist)
Favourite Movies
any good horror/thriller movies
Favourite TV Shows
Doctor Who
Favourite Bands / Musical Artists
OneRepublic, Imagine Dragons, Anthem Lights, Boyce Avenue, etc.
[X] Gotten detention.
[ ] Gotten your phone taken away in class.
[ ] Gotten suspended.
[x] Gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] Gotten caught cheating on a test.
Total: 2
[x] Arrived late to class more than 5 times.
[x] Didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] Turned at least 3 projects in late.
[x] Missed school(class) cause you felt like it.
[ ] Laughed so loud you got kicked out of class.
Total : 4
[ ] Got your mom / dad etc. to get you out of school.
[X] Texted people during class.
[X] Passed notes.
[X] Threw stuff across the room.
[X] Laughed at the teacher.
Total: 4
[ ] Pulled Down The Fire Alarm.
[X] Went on Myspace , Faceboo
haven't done a journal in such a long time so I thought maybe I could do this...
52 Secrets About Yourself Be HONEST no matter what.
1. What is your natural hair colour? Black
2. Where was your ID picture taken? it was taken at a back road in Key West
3. What's your middle name? Alejandro
4. Your current relationship status? Taken by no one, but wanting that one
5. Honestly, does your crush/boyfriend like you back? I'm sure... as far as I know, I'll never be more than just a friend
6. What is your current mood? kinda peeved off cause I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled within the next few days
7. What's the colour of your underwear?
another year another Fantasy Fest. man it was a blast. for those who have no blazin idea wtf im talking about, Fantasy Fest is an annual event that happens in Key West, Florida. it's practically an event for all the Drag Queens and weirdos of the Keys to just so themselves up and drive around floats and chuck beads at people. im gonna post the photos up soon enough because Fantasy Fest cant be actually described with words, you need to actually see it for yourself